You say you're happy and you're doing fine
Well, go ahead, baby.. I got plenty of time
Because sad eyes never lie
Because sad eyes never lie
~ Bruce Springsteen
If photos could speak, her sad eyes would be telling me to be strong right now. But I can't push away the pain inside when I know there are tears being fought back.
Saturday, December 11, 2010
Tuesday, October 05, 2010
Where Do We Go Now...
Too many people, too many questions. Everybody has been asking me to put some serious thought into this. But I’ve made up my mind.. this loverboy is going straight ahead with loving her!!
To be honest, it's not like I haven't asked myself why am I doing this. The answers have ranged from "she's super duper hot" to "I feel sense of protectiveness around her". I’ve played with all possible explanations.. and for a long time I hadn't been able to pin point the exact reason. With anybody else I probably wouldn't have done so much soul searching, but here this was important because I knew there'd be a lot of people waiting to pounce on me with same question. And then it occurred to me that there is not one single answer. This girl is one-in-a-million.. and I love her for all that she is. That includes respecting her past and recognizing the scars it has left her with.
True.. there’s a certain amount of crazy attraction involved here.. and my decision could be blinded by the instant headrush that she is. But somewhere deep inside she makes me comfortable being me.. and that's the girl I would want to build my future with. I understand there will be good days and bad days.. but I want all those days to end with my baby in my arms. My choice is right here.
Never before have I been so clear on what I want to do. It’s the how that bothers me.
To be honest, it's not like I haven't asked myself why am I doing this. The answers have ranged from "she's super duper hot" to "I feel sense of protectiveness around her". I’ve played with all possible explanations.. and for a long time I hadn't been able to pin point the exact reason. With anybody else I probably wouldn't have done so much soul searching, but here this was important because I knew there'd be a lot of people waiting to pounce on me with same question. And then it occurred to me that there is not one single answer. This girl is one-in-a-million.. and I love her for all that she is. That includes respecting her past and recognizing the scars it has left her with.
True.. there’s a certain amount of crazy attraction involved here.. and my decision could be blinded by the instant headrush that she is. But somewhere deep inside she makes me comfortable being me.. and that's the girl I would want to build my future with. I understand there will be good days and bad days.. but I want all those days to end with my baby in my arms. My choice is right here.
Never before have I been so clear on what I want to do. It’s the how that bothers me.
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